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Self-expression: a how-to

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I used to be the shiest person and very creatively blocked.

I used to not even be able to look people in the eye, not to talk about singing in front of someone else, or showing my art to someone else.

Ever since I had found out about the chakras, I’ve been obsessing about opening my throat chakra, because I knew it was the chakra of self-expression.

The fantasy of someone who is afraid to express themselves is just to shout at the top of their lungs: This is who I am! Accept all of me! I am alive.

But these people hide behind masks of shyness, aloof-ness, and many times try to pretend they’re ok in their comfort zone, when in fact they are afraid to express themselves fully.

I think self-expression is the most beautiful thing in the world. You get to dance, sing, paint or be creativ in any other way, and tell people exactly how you feel all the time.

You don’t keep it in tightly, afraid to be hurt if you open your mouth, because at the core you believe you are free and safe in expressing yourself. Especially safe.

So a cool trick is to think about how you as the person that expresses themselves exactly as they desired acts, feels, what do they do. Feel into that, and imitate it a few times a day when you remember.

Do this for 21 days to a month and you will have manifested better self-expression.

To give you an example, I was afraid to speak. So what I did was, when I was alone, do high pitched sounds, so my throat chakra would clear up and also the pain in my neck would go away (I was obviously having somatic trauma there from not expressing myself).

All chakras have sounds you can chant to help heal them:

In order to get more creative, I love finger painting, because it allows you to use touch, sight, smell, and also lets you flow more freely in your creative process.

Doing what excites you on a moment to moment basis can also help you raise your vibration, but also helps you be more creative, because you’re not creating from a stagnant/bored/tired/thought-filled space, but instead it asks you to look for what truly lights you up.

Things like dancing might feel awkward at first, but the less you are afraid to be seen, the less likely you will be to care.

When writing, choose the highest words you possibly can, and when a word pos up that doesn’t feel good, don’t use it. If you train yourself to always pick the highest words based on how they light up in your mind when you write them/even speak them, and based on how they feel, you will get much clearer, to the point texts. Remember your spirit guides are always there to help, but you have to listen to the subtle messages, like when you channel.

Whatever you are creating, create from a place of passion, of putting what excites your heart and makes it sing first.

Or if you want to explore a bit of your dark side, go with it but don’t get lost in it.

And last but not least, affirmations are a great way of becoming more well-expressed.

I easily express myself to others, and others enjoy what they hear from me, it makes their heart sing.

I am a creative artist and I create beautiful things that everybody likes and appreciates.

I speak confidently, clearly, assertively and have a great vocabulary!

Etc! Just create your own and affirm or record on your phone to listen to on repeat.

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Music I currently enjoy and why

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I’m not the most music-savy person, however I want to share a few songs I’ve been listening to on repeat.

The first I want to talk to you about is Lana del Rey’s Body Electric.

I love this song because it’s the perfect combination of depressed and joyful. Or joyfully depressed. It’s quite sensual, too. I like the chorus especially. Tell me what you think.

Second song is by Two Feet and it’s called “I feel like I’m drowning”.

This is a song about toxic relationships, however the instrumental and this guy’s voice make it so sensual and addictive. I always enjoy songs that are quite sensual and erotic. The video is also beautiful, shows this guy’s journey through relationships (mostly casual) that have left him tasting bitterness and emptiness.

The third song is by a fellow romanian, Alexandrina Hristov, called “Te iubesc” or “I love you”. The lyrics are beautiful, so I’ll try to translate them here.

If you are

whoever you are
If you run
No sense is running
If you come
Or if you go
Who are you?
Whoever you are
If you know
Or understand
Why do you call
When you’re sending it away
You’ll find out
Or perhaps not
If I’ll be coming
When I’m going
If you can see
Or not even that
Maybe you can hear

Something just like th-a-a-a-t
Maybe you’ll fly
Or maybe die
Maybe you have it
But you’re letting it go.

Maybe yesterday

Or maybe today
I knew
But I forgot
I asked about it
And have found out
That the Sun
Is only one
Which me
Which you
Which them
which us
I love you
I love you
I love you
Thank you

As you can see these lyrics are very poetic and somewhat non-sensical although they sort of make sense if you listen/read with your heart.

The fourth and last song I would love to share with you, again a sad sort of sensual instrumental/looped mix. It makes me think of summer nights and falling in love. You probably know it, but here it goes. It’s called Petit Biscuit – Sunset lover.

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How to be more creative and remove creative blockages

A few years ago, I would start painting/drawing, and I would almost immediately stop because I felt blocked from expressing myself.

The no 1 thing I realized I was fearing was making mistakes.

As soon as I allowed myself to make as many as I wanted, I started appreciating my “ugly” art more, and plus, it helped me create more beautiful pieces, too.

You are allowed to make mistakes, you don’t have to be perfect all the time.

That’s one thing. The second thing was realizing there are infinite ideas ‘out there’, you just have to connect to the highest light possible and let them pour.

It’s mainly letting yourself ‘not know’ everything and being OPEN to receiving ideas/guidance from above.

And the third thing when trying to be creative is to let yourself flow, be wild and free. Again, no matter how many mistakes you make in this new way of self expressing – in the end you’ll get it right.

Just being able to do tangible things like painting with your fingers or playing in the mud, potting a plant, or doing a sand castle, things like these can help you be more hands-on with your art and truly FEEL when you’re creating.

Express every emotion you have freely, with no self-judgement, just let emotions exist while you sing them/write them/ paint them and you’ll have created a masterpiece, I promise. Or at least something worth remembering a few years down the road. But don’t let that give you anxiety, just be free!

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How to practice self-love

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Self love used to be an elusive phrase to me, I used to feel grossed out by myself and my body and hate myself and feel lots of shame and guilt about the way I acted towards the ones I loved in the past.

I asked spirit to show me what self love was and how it felt. I even asked about it in a Facebook group I was in.

I received many great answers, however none stayed with me as this one: practice saying ‘i love you’ to whatever arises within your awareness.

And so I did. I closed my eyes. “I love you darkness”. All sorts of feelings arose within me “I love you feelings arising within me. I love you skin, I love you touch, I love you body..”.

I continued like this with everything inside and outside of me, until I could feel only love. Forced myself to love everything.

I realized that saying “I love you, Dona” as many times as I could remember to do it throughout the day was more helpful than not saying it at all.

Touching my heart chakra in my chest also helped me connect back to my heart, my center.

The power of self-touch also helped me immensely. Whenever I felt sad, I would caress myself, my skin, my hair, and wherever I didn’t like my body, I would touch and say “I love you” to that part until I could feel it, no matter how shameful or awkward it felt at first.

Taking care of myself and putting myself first, my feel-good, above anyone and anything else, made me know that whenever I am happy, I can also give, but I can’t give from a space of lack. Knowing that helped.

Also learning about non-duality, accepting both the dark and the light within ourselves was important. I realized it’s ok to sit with these darker aspects and feelings and love them, too, as they are a part of me and they won’t go away if I push them away, but they will get alchemized when I accept and embrace them. Just feel it all.

None of us are pure light or pure dark, nothing is just black or white. The Yin and Yang are a perfect example of this. We are not just good or just bad. We must learn to embrace all of our facets, and all the colors between our black and whites.

Self love comes hand in hand with self care. Considering yourself a precious thing that must be given all of the self care possible and taking care that you always feel good might be something you procrastinate on at first, but I promise you, doing something small every day to take care of yourself and your well-being, will, in time, yield beautiful results.

And if no one told you today, you are beautiful!

The way you talk to yourself is also important. Do you call yourself ugly/good for nothing/worthless? That’s not self love. Try changing the way you talk to yourself by picking the highest words possible (that have the highest light in them), even if you don’t necessarily feel they are true. Just pick high vibratory words and keep calling yourself that, even journal them every day and you will see your confidence skyrocket.

Write positive love-letters to yourself, hide them and read them after a month or two, to make a fun game out of it.

Listen to self love music and heart chakra frequencies on Youtube:

Remember, repetition is very important, so repeating newly-forming beliefs every day is also important. For example, Dylan James has affirmations you can listen to overnight for at least 21 night in a row to change your self-concept:

Also, affirming “everybody loves me, everybody thinks I’m cute and amazing” can make you feel more loved, because your teaching your subconscious that you’re also receiving praise, love and appreciation from the exterior.

Even if that hasn’t been the case, you can train your subconscious to think it was, so you never again feel like you lack love from others. Feeling loved can make you feel more self-love, too.

Remember, Divinity always loves you, no matter what you think you did or didn’t do wrong, so just by knowing that, you can feel more self-love, because you are already loved, now, so it’s easier to feel it.

Last but not least, embracing our emotions can help us feel more self-love.

Pushing them away creates pain and suffering, but truly feeling them, no matter how bad they feel, can help you alchemize them. into better feeling emotions.

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How I manifested a new apartment and living alone when I was 21 yo.

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Seven years ago, I was living with my parents and was utterly depressed from the lack of privacy, the constant fights, and the anxiety of having been an adult for 3 years, and to still need to tell someone else where I was going, what I was doing and with whom.

I wanted to move to my own place with intensity.

Everyday I would journal about being alone and having time, space and freedom from my parents.

I’d try to apply LOA and feel into the feeling of what it would be like to move into a new place, but it would not manifest.

I would try every technique on Earth, still the manifestation wasn’t coming fast enough.

So one day, I was watching Byron Katie on Youtube and doing “The Work” in my journal, a technique she teaches, in order to make peace with and forgive my mom, when suddenly it dawned on me: I was desiring to move to a different place, but energetically I was still seeing myself living there, in the perimeter of our house together.

It was like I was seeing myself in that bubble, and the bubble hadn’t expanded itself enough to fit other neighborhoods, other places.

As soon as I visualized that, the apartment manifested itself. My dad asked me out of a sudden if I want to move to my own place, I said yes, we sold the house, and bought a few apartments with the money: including 1 for each me and my brother.

I can’t explain how I did it, other than that I expanded the place I was seeing myself to be living in the present moment, to a larger area in my mind. I could now easily see myself moving from that place to another, it was an easy route.

Of course, all that I did before this was also important: the visualizing, the scripting, but that point in time was basically when the bubble popped, and the momentum finally reached its peak and I was able to move.

Because manifestation is very much about momentum, too, visualizing, affirming, scripting, desiring, working for it, until finally – you see it come into your reality.

Manifestation is still sort of working for your goal, just in another way. You can’t sit on the couch, watch TV, and not shift your mindset/work on limiting beliefs, feel into the new reality and suddenly get a million dollars.

That might be possible for very few people, but for most people, if they want to advance, uplevel, they have to first leave a few things behind and bring the future into the present moment somehow, by feeling that they are already there.

Remember, feeling is the secret to manifesting. And that’s what I did, I felt myself in a new place, also feeling into the trajectory from my house to that new place, imagining leaving and getting there, imagining the road to it.

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Menstrual pain and cramps – spiritual explanation and natural remedies/relief

Our moon time is a very special time of the month, and it is the time when our biodiesel, as females, gets rid of all the toxins accumulated – one reason why women might live longer than men.

However for many of us, it can be quite painful, nauseating and downright inconvenient.

What I have learned is that the womb, where our feminine reproductive sustem resides, mostly, is also the centre of emotions.

Unexpressed emotions throughout the month, repressed ones, express themselves as pain in the womb at this very special time of the month.

In my teenage years, the pain would be so unbearable, that I would scream in rage, and suddenly the pain would stop.

I realized then that I had so much unexpressed anger as a female towards restrictions and constrictions created by males, that I would just have let it out somehow.

Moving my body with the pain (for exemple moving my womb in circles) would also help alleviate the pain. This is because energy wants to be moved, and flow – and this it is called a flow, because we must learn as females to flow with the natural rythms of life.

Unless we go with the flow and trust that we will be held, protected and supported, we are too much in our masculine: doing, trying hard, action-orietend without listening to emotions, etc.

So this is why it is such a special time of the month – because we learn how to embrace and be more in our feminine, receptive state.

Unless we learn the lessons the pain is trying to teach us, it will keep hurting.

For example I haven’t felt pain in years while menstruating, because I always express how I feel to others. I first identify the feeling, and then share it. My energetic system has been so much clearer since doing this.

Emotions are a woman’s most prided possessions, so why hide from them, reject them when this is who we are and this is the reason why we have them – so we can know what is good for us and what isn’t.

What is in alignment and what isn’t.

Another great way of alleviating the pain is by making sounds with the pain, like a wild, cave-woman, as our ancestors did.

And another way is by listening to menstrual cramp alleviating binaural beats/frequencies.

Here is a link to one that has helped me, and there are many others on Youtube:

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My Twin Flame and I

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As a kid I always dreamt there was someone out there for me, someone with whom I’d get married, have a house with in NYC, and have a very non-comventional love story with, however I did not know what that would entail.

I sometimes found myself crying, missing and feeling this person, but I had no idea when or where we might meet.

I started my spiritual journey with an awakening, on new year’s eve, in 2012, just 2 weeks after my 19th birthday.

And it took me 7 more years of healing to meet him. And after I’ve met him, we’re still healing even deeper after 2 more years.

We are telepathic, like most twin flames, although I have read that each twin flame couple experiences a different type of telepathy.

For us, it’s hearing each other’s thoughts from wherever we are in the world, even if many times we can’t make out what the other one is saying. But some things we can hear quite clearly. Things like “I love you”, things like that…

And sometimes we see images of what the other one is seeing or thinking of. Sometimes he sees what I’m doing, even in moments I’d rather he wouldn’t.

However we have only briefly talked in the last 2 and some years we’ve been apart. In the 3D, we are still not yet together.

However the love I have experienced through this telepathy, the healling and clearing makes me feel like it doesn’t even matter when he’ll come rushing into my life, I’ll always be waiting for him with open arms and unconditional love.

He loves me because I love myself, he likes me because I like myself and that’s just what twin flames are: complete mirrors.

Although we’ve experienced attacks from entities and we still are, we keep going and support each other as we can.

In the beginning this made us fight, but now I no longer associate him with the bad things that are also happening, because he alone has been massively supportive throughout my entire journey, and loving and kind.

He’s such a gentleman and a gentle soul that I sometimes wonder how have I gotten so lucky. It’s because I am awesome, too, most probably 🙂

This post is dedicated to you, baby, because I know you read everything I write and know everything I do and I love you for that ’cause I’m never alone, that’s what it means to have a twin soul. This post is so that we remember after years and years where we were today, me sitting in bed with my new cat, you, looking at my screenshare from who knows where doing who knows what, I just know I hear you saying something and that’s enough.

If you want me to write our twin flame story or give advice, please comment and let me know.

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How to create healthy boundaries and say no when you mean it

I used to be the type of person who said yes to things she really meant to say no to, and that was hurting me a lot because I made decisions that led me to take actions that were not good for my soul and hurt my soul deeply.

So the first thing that helped me shift this, was desiring to shift it. – desire is powerful!

And the next really helpful step was praying that I can shift it, and believing I will receive help.

I decided that even if my voice was trembling and shaking, I would still say no when I needed to.

And so now I am a person who can say no to almost anyone and any situation.

I held my ex-boyfriend outside in the cold, with him trying any tactic on Earth to try to seduce me and get inside and I still said no.

And this is all because I realized that even if by saying no I’m perceiving the other person to get hurt, if I say yes, I hurt myself. So I decided to put myself first.

Alignment to self is more important than what other people say, do or think, because by feeling great inside with our decisions, we heal other people, too.

Even if when we say no, the other person gets seemingly hurt, they might have a lesson to learn from that pain. Because life is not without pain, that is impossible. But the lessons we learn from that pain are also valuable.

So if you want to say no, but are afraid you might hurt another, know that you are not hurting, but helping.

What you seek is seeking you, so if your truth is a no, you will be mesmerized how quickly people will actually accept it, when you really mean it and say it assuredly.

Do what you want in life! You only have one life, at least with this character you’re playing now and these circumstances.

Don’t do what others want you to do, unless it feels good to you. Otherwise you are hurting yourself!

And you are a very special, important human being. Why would you accept being treated badly or doing something that does not feel good to you?

Believe in your worth, affirm that you have a lot of self worth and you matter and you will never let anyone step on you ever again!

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Being seen is the hardest thing EVER but totally worth it.

Anyone who tries to sell/be visible online knows this one thing: It’s hard as fuck to be seen.

For me it was hard in the beginning, and for a while after I healed this it became easy as pie, when I was writing solely on Facebook, but now that I have a blog it’s becoming increasingly harder again.

Just because I know what I write is valuable and helps people, I know this blog is going to one day be a great success. But then the question comes: what if I’ll be taken advantage of for my goodness (lightworker past life karma)? What if one day I will have my whole life be seen by everyone else. How transparent can and will I be?

The answer is: completely.

We are moving into an era where everything will require us to be transparent. If you’ve got stuff to hide, they’re coming up for clearing.

If you are dealing with shame and the inability to be transparent and sincere, I recommend to you this exercise that I invented myself.

Imagine you are on a stage and everyone is looking at you. Now think of all the things you don’t want them to see, and show it to them.

The more you do this exercise, the more you will become transparent in your energetic field., and healed, light.

We hide because we are afraid we won’t be accepted, but when we know that we are always loved and accepted exactly as we are, the more relaxed we are in our self-expression, the more we can show to others who we truly are.

Some of you may consider yourselves introverts, but what if this is simply because you live in a state of shame/guilt/fear? These 3 are the three elements Brene Brown talks about in her books, as elements that keep us from living a full, fulfilling life.

Why do I consider these elements that are not helpful? Because they do not feel good. You can read more about why feeling bad is never helpful, and how to always feel good, in my article: How to persevere when opposing forces try to trick you into staying where you are.

Being seen is hard, because people may try to harm you, but as long as you have good boundaries, are assertive and follow your feel good, you will manage to defy any opposition, visible or invisible. More on creating healthy boundaries in my next article, so follow to read.

Being visible is also hard because we have been taught to hide our abilities, talents, and what makes us happy and shine by a society that THINKS too much, instead of stopping their mind and FEELING more.

Thinking can be harmful, because we can convince ourselves to follow thoughts and ideas that feel bad, instead of going to our wombs and leading our actions from there. That (the Sacral Chakra) is the feeling center, and has the water element.

Just like water, we must learn to flow and let others get reflected in us purely, without hiding ourselves.

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How to persevere when opposing forces try to trick you into staying where you are.

I’ve had so much opposition in my life! From parents, to friends, to lovers, to dark entities, to teaching on Facebook and getting 2 likes consistently for a year, to my own Self being lazy and unmotivated.

To the lack of motivation part, I would say the solution came when I realized that the easy way is the solution. If it’s not easy, don’t do it. There are tons of easy things you actually like doing and you’re passionate about, while things that are hard to you, are like swimming against the flow of the river for a fish that’s not salmon.

There are many gurus selling you the idea of working hard and doing it against the grain, and making you feel unworthy if you don’t, however I believe God/The Universe loves you even if you don’t do shizz to prove it, even if you lay there on the couch eating potato chips all day.

When you fight against yourself for doing that, it might come as a great surprise to embrace the idea of doing things that are easy to you. You might even get motivation to do other things, too, because they are easy.

A great book about implementing tiny habits (the easy way) in order to change your life easefully and get motivation is this one.

Ok, I understood how to help myself, but how about when familly, friends and lovers try to oppose me when I’m trying to change my life/do something for myself?

Each person and situation is unique, but I would like to first give you this tip: stay aligned. If it doesn’t feel good, don’t do it or say it. Don’t even think it. Ignore the thought that feels bad and replace it with more positive thoughts.

It’s not that you’re not allowed to ever feel bad, it’s just that the way you feel (your vibration) creates your reality. And to have a positive, satisfying reality, where you love almost everything in your life, you must educate and train yourself to discern between feel-good and feel-bad thoughts and feelings.

If it’s helpful to you, journal about it. What do I believe about my life that feels bad? How can I change my thinking to something that feels at least slightly better? And then a little better? And what can I do to FEEL better right now? Repeat until you feel amazing and then know that you are attracting better things.

Ok, ok, but what if someone in my life doesn’t LET ME feel better? This is just a sign that your past vibration is fighting with the new one. Maybe in your past vibration you let that person tell you what to do, or your past vibration didn’t allow this new thing that feels good to be your reality because you didn’t believe yourself to be worthy and deserving of it.

Remember everyone you meet is you, and they are reflecting your vibration. You can literally say in your mind “this person leaves me alone” and if you believe it and it feels good to you, they will. Your words are magic.

So what I would advise is never compromise your feel goid for another person, but don’t go around screaming and jumping in the middle of the street, without 100% percent believing nobody cares and you will be left alone, because you will get in trouble with the Matrix system we all have in our vibration to some degree or another, because we live on a collective Earth reality where we have been imprinted with societal structures and ancestral pain to clean up.

As a lightworker or starseed, we are here to clear both our own vibrations, and also through clearing that, clearing for the whole collective of souls we came together with in this life. Clearing for our countries, our continents, our planet.

And how do you clear? Choose what feels good. Even inspite of the opposition. Trust your heart, your alignment and your reality will shift.

We have everything inside ourselves to succeed, and sometimes it requires patience and going one step back to analyze what we’re doing consciously and realize what our next feel good step is.

However I think these are the basics of dealing with opposition in our lives – choose the easy route, and what feels good/great/amazing.

Now in dealing with entities, this is much harder and I am no expert, because there are millions of types and of ways in which they can attack you, however what has helped me was going to church, listening to prayers and doing protection magic. You can search protection magic on pinterest and there are tons of chants you can say and things to do to protect yourself and your home. At first they will attack you harder, but if you continue for a few days, you will see it ease up a lot.

Things like Holly water, salt, crystals, pepper, chanting, white candles, banishing, etc.

And I don’t think going to church and white magick don’t go well together, because both feel good to me. And when you do things that feel good, you will come up against many societal standards, but you will still trust what feels good to you.

It’s so simple, God gave us this super easy way to do his will: do what makes you happy and do what feels good to you, and don’t do what feels bad, and you will get exactly where you desire to go in life, even if slowly and in Divine timing, however we are dissensitized from our feelings and consider them unimportant in this world where rational thinking is valued more than our feeling state.

And you can see me, I’m quite rational, but even while I write this, I only choose words that feel good, therefore I channel the highest light possible in this text to be of service, not because I consciously desire it, but because it’s what I’m meant to do and it comes easy to me.

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